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Posted Monday, March 19, 2007 // 10:04 PM

have been damn sick these few days, so couldnt blog at all.
first, it's the stupid singles thing that's bothering me.
and now, it's the sickness. like wth, wat did i do to deserve this.
havent i been good enough, helping everyone, treating them damn well yet all i get back is their selfishness. i hate it when they are just being self centred.

got a fever after the gathering with table tennis pple. the gathering was damn fun(:
then stayed at home the whole night and got a fever just like that. didnt go for trng the next day and went to uncle's house to play with the kids. mayb because of the running while playing catching, i got a higher fever:(

my head was like super pain the next morning. argh.

then again, today was school. rahh. looked forward to the trng cause tmr's the comp! and im totally not playing well in singles, i cant jump properly. like wat else can i do la, i cant play singles,i cant play doubles. i might as well stop playing.

it's like now i play doubles, once i do something wrong, my partner will look at me with the 'you are so dumb' or 'tsk' look. i cant help feeling damn useless. my dumb legs just doesnt want to move no matter how hard i try. i dont even dare to smack now, for fear that my partner might get pissed with me or sth.

i'd better play properly and get over with the nationals.

i feel damn nervous, argh. i want doubles back. but i just cant do it now.

Posted Tuesday, March 13, 2007 // 10:25 AM

FRIDAY(9/3)
a terrible day.

had trng, and halfway through, coach made us gather around and that's when the tragedy started. he said that he wanted our team to score more, so have to strengthen the doubles. and apparently, i was the only one that wasnt playing that well, not up to coach's expectations. so coach said that he will be letting leckhui play doubles with kristine, and i will play singles. we were all still okay at that point, but after coach dismissed us, leckhui started crying.

i was still trng halfway, and when i saw leckhui cried, i started to think that it was all my fault. i caused leckhui to be playing doubles now, im totally a jerk. to think when i was young, i still hoped that i could play singles.

but now, all i knew is that i didnt want to play singles anymore. So i started crying, but jasper( trng me) didnt notice, and made me continue playing. When he finally stopped trng me, i went into the door at the back of the basement and started crying out loud. well, at least no one noticed that i was missing or wat.
thks to tricia fongzhi malan and oli for cheering me up.
After trng, i was totally not in the mood for talent time. trish cheered me up and told me that leckhui cried not because she couldnt play singles, but that she was afraid that she might implicate kristine. well, after hearing that, at least i felt a bit better. went ahead with the others to bathe, then we went 7 eleven to have our dinner.

talent time was quite fun, except the part where the yu le guy sang totally out of tune but got second while stephanie leng sang wonderfully but got third. so unfair.

SUNDAY (11/3)

met up with the b girls at 5 and waited for leckhui to come. A few bus 16 past by us, yet leckhui havent reach the bus stop where we were waiting for her. haha, then when leckhui reached, a bus 16 soon came and we saw it. yet, we were so engrossed in talking that we forgot to flag the bus:( so it went ZOOM past us. In the end we decided to take bus 31 and walked into sunsports instead.
As expected, we got thrashed by safra. the worst thing was that, the first doubles from safra who were like in their fifties didnt even let us win a few balls, they just kept smacking. like, so not gentlemanly. lol, what a normal guy would do is at least let the girls win a few balls right.
After the match, we went to kfc to eat. And on the way there, we were super estatic; running after coach's car and stuff.
But soon, when coach started to mention about leckhui being doubles and me being singles, i felt damn emo. argh. it's all my fault la, if i had played properly, coach wouldnt have made leckhui doubles. and now, i dont think i can play properly in singles either. there are many many things that i havent learnt about singles, im simply not prepared yet. i dont want to play singles, but i have to now. it's not within my means to decide whether i shld play singles or doubles. if only i had played better. i didnt want to play singles! i dont want to be the redundant singles that coach mentioned. the singles that served no purpose whether she wins or lose. coach says, it's the doubles that's more important. i hate myself.
I was damn tired after eating, but fongzhi was still doing her hw, and nobody wants to go. so i just walked out of kfc by myself.
Saw turtle monkey watermelon and their gang , then they waited for me and we walked to the bus stop together. Their stupid jokes kind of cheered me up, haha. thks guys.
There wasnt any bus at the bus stop that i could take home, so i tried flagging for a taxi. Flagged damn long until fongzhi and the others came, yet no taxi was available. Gave up soon and walked with them opposite and tried flagging for taxi, but even until all of them were gone, no taxi was in sight.
It was getting damn late and my mother called me to tell me that i could take 31, so i went back opposite-.- tried flagging for taxi again cause 31 was damn long. all the taxis that were not hired didnt stop, or were changing their shifts alrdy. finally, i flagged a taxi. the uncle was quite nice, asking about table tennis and stuff.

argh, i got to go bathe now, going to sing k box(:

Posted Thursday, March 8, 2007 // 6:00 PM

IM FINALLY BLOGGING AFTER A LONG 'VACATION'

lol, apparently i've not been blogging because of common tests and my sister looking over my shoulder all the time. well, many things have happened these two weeks or so.

we've managed to clinch the 2nd position and the c girls 4th. exceptionally happy that day but there wasnt any team dinner:(
leckhui, leckqi and a few of us went long john's silver and both lecks came to my house because they were going church at night and there was still time.

then for this whole week, there was COMMON TEST- the paper that strikes fear among everyone. lol, uhm it was rather okay, except for SS and chinese.
for the first time, i thought chinese was difficult:( it was more of chinese lit than norm chinese. the compre requires us to answer questions that could not be found within the passage. like some kind of unseen prose.
social studies was terrible, because of the reliability question and venice. because i've scored 5 out of 10 for the venice content, i have to go for DETENTION for the first time in my entire life. utterly embarrassing, argh.

just watched a movie about conflict between north and south korea in school for the ss thing. starring lee young ae and some other korean guy. it was super nice(: not really very touching, but fongzhi still cried. haha.

ivan lim managed to get two talent times tickets for fongzhi and i, leckhui got the other from melissa. it's tmr! yeah! but i've got the stupid detention in the afternoon. rahhh.

yeah, that's all. i'll blog 'soon'!

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