❝ why is a raven like a writing desk? ❞
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Posted Friday, June 19, 2009 // 12:50 AM
300th post.Just had a sudden urge to read all my convos with my friends for the past year. Friends that I dont even talk to now. I remembered I enjoyed talking to shimin. But we dont talk now. Well, many things have changed just within a year. And then I came across my conversation with him. and I cant believe how I talked to him. I seriously sounded, silly and so...自作多情。 Repeated questions. When I knew it was impossible between us. I hated it when he didnt reply my msges. I hated him for telling me he liked me and I ended up liking him blindly. I hated him for not telling me he stopped liking me after I left nyjc. Come to think of it, I lost my pride when Im always talking to him. I dislike it when I humiliate myself by doing stupid things. For a year, I've been trying hard to be strong, lying to myself when I already knew the truth. I knew my efforts were going to be futile, yet I remained headstrong. He told me what I didnt want to hear. He apologised. He said he admired my courage. But it wasnt courage, it was mere stupidity I know. He didnt knew I had feelings. No one bothers anyway. |
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